Sometimes when I am having extreme anxiety, I lose track of time. It is like the clock is in one world and I am in a different world from the clock.
I wonder if anyone has this happen to them?
Sometimes the clock moves so slow that I feel like 8 hours has passed and it has been only 1 hour. Other times the clock moves so fast that I don’t know what happened. I think it is 9:30 pm and then I look at the clock and it is 12:30.
It really freaks me out. It is like I lost time. How can you lose time? What was I doing and what happened to the hours?
Tonight I went to the Walmart with my daughter and then I came home. I planned to call my boyfriend around 11 pm because that is our regular time to connect at the end of our work days. But tonight I was doing things, i guess and the phone was plugged in to charge. I expected to charge the phone and then call him at our time.
He had called me 2 times and I did not know because the phone was off while it was charging. I went to check how the phone was doing and I saw the call history that he had called twice. Then I saw the time on the phone was 12:30 am. I was surprised at the time. I could not see how it could be so late.
So I called him and told him what I just told you about my brain losing time. He believed me and was sympathetic, which is good. I used to be able to estimate time better. The last 2 months have been bad with my memory and time.
I already had PTSD and then things kept happening that were so extremely triggering to me that I think my brain broke more. I will talk about those things in other posts,because it is hard to think about right now.
I feel like I am getting a kind of dementia. Not really but it seems like there are periods of time that I am not processing the world in a way that matches what is really happening.
Does anyone else understand this at all?