I often wake up in the morning feeling overwhelmed. The anxiety kicks in at the realization that I have a hundred things to do in order to survive and make sure my kids eat.
The overwhelming feeling of being alone to figure things out, cook, clean, wash, teach, guide, make enough money to keep a roof over their heads, drive them places ( Mom’s taxi service ), worry about their mental health, worry about their physical health, keep track of their emotional well being,…..on and on……
This is why there are supposed to be two people that work together as a team. Most people even have other relatives that help…mothers, grandmothers, sisters…
But I am alone, even though I live in a house with 12 other kind-of relatives.
Water water everywhere. ..and not a drop to drink.
Oh!!!!!! I just realized that this can count for the quote challenge I received a little while ago.
I was nominated by LuvBear
I had not intended to put that quote in this post when I started. It just came to my head because it was so obviously appropriate for what I was describing.
Ok…so Water water everywhere and not a drop to drink.
Lots of relatives, ex relatives etc. If they do help, which is rare, they have to do it in a way that undermines me.
I live with two narcissistic. …actually three..but he is not quite as bad… well…Denial isn’t just a river in Egypt.
Yes, I do deny the extent of the reality sometimes. It is nicer to think that maybe they care and have not been intentionally undermining me all these years. But they have been and it is very sad.
Sometimes the Water water everywhere are the people. So many people around you but you still feel lonely, alone, isolated, undermined, cheated and lied to.
With a house full of people I still feel completely alone, except for my bunny, who I adore and my daughters sometimes. They are young and on their own paths. I do my best to guide them.
13 people living in my house….and I feel isolated, betrayed and mentally abused.
That is my post. I am supposed to nominate three people to do this challenge. Write a post about a favorite quote of your choosing.
One quote, one post a day for three days.
I nominate …
You can accept if you like.
Love and peacefulness,