January is Stalking Awareness Month

January is stalking awareness month. Stalkers are dangerous people. They are controlling and obsessive.

They will focus their attention on one person and spend inordinate amounts of time making sure they know where they are and what they are doing.

Stalkers will contact the victim to let them know that they are being stalked. They will call or send text messages to inform the victim that they know what they are doing. It is very unsettling for someone to call you and tell you they know what you are doing and who you are with.

There are different methods for stalking.  Before social media and cell phones, stalkers would physically follow their victims and watch them with binoculars.

Nowadays stalkers use downloadable apps to follow their victim. The victim’s cell phone can be tampered with to add a tracking app. The stalker can follow the person using their cell phone.

My personal experience was with cyber stalking, My ex used to call me and question me about what web sites I visited. He seemed to know what web sites I had memberships to and what days I went on them.

One time he called me . just minutes after i had gone onto Christian Mingle.com. (I had already moved and broken up with him). I clicked into the sight, entered my password and bam, the phone rang.

It was him and he was questioning me as to why I was on the dating site. At first I started to defend myself, reminding him that we had broken up and I was free to look at the dating sights. After a few seconds the light bulb went off.

I asked him how i the world he could possible know that I had just been on that particular sight. He told me that he had a program installed in my computer, when I used to live with him. He was able to follow where I went from his own computer, while I was on mine.

He said it followed me by my email address, but it is hard to know if he was telling the truth. I immediately changed my email address and closed all of the accounts I had. It took me a couple of days to change everything. It was really a pain to have to do.

Once he finally confessed to me,  lot of other things began to come together and make sense. I never understood how he would end up outside of the stores and places I used to go, when we were dating.

One time I told him I was going to the grocery store but I ended up shopping on Amazon for a while first. He called me from work and asked me why I had not gone to the store. He asked me why I was on the computer and not at the store yet. I was confused at the time about how he knew I had not left yet. He was supposedly already at work.

It seems to me that he had to be accessing my emails as well. I sent someone an email one day  that I was going to physical therapy. I decided to get my nails done after therapy. I walked over and set up the time with her for a half an hour from then and I walked over to Quick Check to get a coffee while I was waiting.

When I came our of Quickcheck, he was  there. I thought it was a weird coincidence and he did frequent that store to get coffee. When I saw him, I said hello. He was angry and looked at me as if he were disgusted.

“I thought you were only going to physical therapy and then straight home,” he said accusingly.

I told him that I had never agreed to come straight home and that I had decided to make an appointment to get my nail done, across the street. He said he was angry because I had not let him know that.

I explained to hm that the nail appt only took  about 20 minutes and it did not alter my original schedule very much. Besides I thought  he was working. What was the difference what I did with my money and my time?

He told me that in the future he expected me to let him know if I intended to stop anywhere on the way home from therapy. I told him that was difficult for me because I like to do things like that, on the spur of the ,moment. I like to pop in and ask them id they have any appointment that day.

He was very angry and asked if someone was meeting me there in the parking lot. I said o and that my appointment was in a couple of minutes. I had to go and walk  across the street to the nail salon now.

He was angry that I would stay there and talk to him. I reminded him that when he had a haircut appointment that he went on time. Therefor I needed to be on time also. The nail technician has a schedule to keep.

He did not care about my being on time and he was still suspicious that some guy was meeting me there.

He must have been following me in his van when I walked from the house to physical therapy. I did not notice or look for that, because I was not aware of him following me.

To this day, I still get creeped out when I see a van the same size and color as his van.

At some point when I lived with him, he bought the computer program and put in on my computer. He added my email to it and was able to watch what sites I went to. I have no idea if he was able to get into my personal accounts or just see where I visited online.

Recently, Linked in sent me an email telling me that my linkedin account had been viewed 3 times in  2 week period. Guess by who? When does it stop ? I have not seen him in a year.

My guess is that he kept going back to the linkedin account, in order to find out where my new job was. I had changed jobs to keep him from showing up at my work. After we had broken up, he showed up and was waiting for me in the dark parking lot after work.

One time he put something in my car and then called me later to see if I get it. It was his way of letting me know that he knew where I parked and that he had opened the door to my car. He easily could have crawled into the car and waited for me to get in.

It was very creepy and that was one the reasons I changed jobs. I never put my new job on linkedin , nor have I put it anywhere on the internet. That is why I do not have it on wordpress either. I never post where I work, because he is still trying to find out.

Stalking causes some victims to have to move in order to be safe. Some stalking situations escalate into violence and even death. Victims of severe stalking cannot fo anywhere without feeling threatened. They end up isolated and locked into their house.

Sexual Assault/Domestic Violence Center Inc. hotline: 620-663-2522
National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-7233 or 1-800-787-3224

Rape, Abuse and Incest National Network: 1-800-656-4673

National Teen Dating Abuse Helpline: 1-866-331-9474 or 1-866-331-8453

http://victimsofcrime.org/our-programs/stalking-resource-center

Stalking resources and help link above.

Creepy Guys Cyber Stalking me and post traumatic stress triggered by that

I am feeling post  traumatic stress about being cyber stalked. I was in a relationship once in which he cyber stalked me and actually stalked me. I will tell you this story sometime, maybe later today. But this is what has recently happened to creep me out and bring back memories of that guy who used to watch me online and also follow me places.

Truthfully, I think he is still attempting to find out where I am because he viewed my linked in account three times in the last month. I need help closing the account, if anyone knows how. I tried following the instructions at linked in but could not close the account. If anyone wants to help me, please put directions in the comments.

Yesterday, there was a message from a creepy guy on my facebook. I do not remember how or why I have him in my friends list. I think he is a facebook friend of my friend in baltimore. He must have friend requested me and I hit accept without thinking. Anyway, that must have been months ago because i have not been on facebook in a while.

He send me this creepy message yesterday that said, Please talk to me.I need you.

I responded “I do not recognize you. ”

He kept sending me messages that said” I need you” and  “please talk to me.” He typed in broken english and broken thought patterns that were creepy.

I sent him a message, “I do not know you and I am busy now to be meeting guys online. Your messages that you need me are feeling creepy to me.’

so then he said “Better creepy than you do not talk to me”

So he kept sending messages like “please talk to me” “I need you” “better you talk to me” “better creepy that you do not talk to me” “creepy is you do not talk to me” “please talk to me”

Finally I had my 12 year old daughter bock him for me. I had her do that and show me how to do it , just in case i need to again.

So, today I woke up and I had 7 messages from guys I do not know on Skype. I was talking to my boyfriend on skype  late last night and i fell asleep without closing it. So while i was sleeping, skype said i was online. Several guys that are strangers to me sent me requests to skype with them.

It was so scary and creepy to me. Do people just send messages to random women and ask to skype with them in the middle of the night?

So i sent my boyfriend a frantic message asking for help. He responded to me right away and helped me turn skype off . Later i will  have him help me to keep from getting messages like that, if there is a way? Does anyone know? I thought skype was like a cell phone and people only call you if they have your phone number.

I do not understand the messages from strange guys in the night thing.

Sorry for the crazy rant. The guy that stalked me years ago, inflicted tremendous mental abuse on me. I barely got out of the house where i lived with him. last year in october 2013. After which he continued to cyber stalk me and show up at my job.

Part of me feels paranoid that one of the guys on skype is actually him, using a different name. I would not out it past him to spy on me that way and find out where I work.

Anyway, skype is offline now. Creepy guy on facebook is blocked.

My boyfriend is by his computer in case I need to send him an anxiety email. He does not like to see me tormented.I would feel better if he were here in person, but at least he is there in case I call or email.

So I will go out and do my last minute errands now. I feel like i will be looking around me for that truck that my ex has. It is a terrible feeling to know someone is following you around. I do not think he is anymore. My rational side tells me he is busy doing other things today. But my ptsd tells me to watch the cars around me today, so that I do not lead home with me

I don’t want to be paranoid but really, what are the chances of those things all happening within 12 hours and they also follow the fact that my ex viewed my liked in account repeatedly. Please somebody help me close the linked in account. I do not want ot open at all. he probably has already gotten my email address from the linked in account , which means he can plug it into the computer program he has to cyber stalk me and watch where i go online.

Now I will probably develop an OCD behavior about checking over and over to make sure skype is turned off. Like I need another ritual to perform… LOL

Send calming thoughts my way. It might help. Thank you for listening,

Annie

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