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Abusive Relationships…Which Red Flag is the Most Important One?


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Good Bye

Tip your hat

Say goodbye

Don’t apologize

The time has past

It’s not enough

It will not last

Don’t dare ask why

Just move your feet

I will not cry

Not in front of you

It just might stop you…

Like in the past

But not again

I am finally done

You’ve done your damage

You’ve had your fun

Just keep going

On your way

Don’t look back!

I won’t be here

Not this time

Not again

Now, take your things

Take my things

I don’t care about them

Take all this  stuff!

Just leave me my heart

And leave me my mind

Whatever is left

Don’t take your time

Just keep moving

I am not changing my mind

There’s not much left of it

After what you’ve done

But I will recover

In spite of you

Just keep walking

I will see myself through

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Red Flags You are With an Abusive Personality

Here is a list of red flags that may help you to see early on that you are with an abusive personality. If you are seeing a few of these characteristics then you need to assert some boundaries with them and see how they react.

If they fight you about having simple personal boundaries then you need to realize that you may be in an abusive relationship. 

Tell them you have to go sleep early one night because you have a lot to do the next day. If they do not accept this, then there is a problem.

No one should give you guilt or shame you that you are not good to them, when you are doing simple basic things to take care of yourself.

It is not normal for someone to threaten to leave you or call you a bad girlfriend if you want to do things for yourself like take a class, do an extra assignment for school or work, or spend time with family or friends.

You should never feel manipulated by guilt, shame or fear. People that love you do not inflict fear or threats in order to get you to comply.

Here is a list that I have come up with from research and also from personal experience. There may be things that need to be added. Feel free to leave any ideas in the comments.

Keep in mind that narcissists are on their best behavior at the very beginning of the relationship, called the idealization phase.

Many of these red flags will not come up until the “honeymoon phase” is over in a couple of months. The best ones to look for early on are the ones that I put near to the top of this list.

Love Bombing and Pushing to be in a Serious Relationship Right Away

Constant texting, calling, stopping over (calls you the second you get out from work or during work/ calls you while you are trying to get ready for work/ calls you first thing on your day off and wants to be on the phone, texting, or see you all day on every day off you have / calls while you are out with friends and you told them you would be busy with friends/  texts you when you said you would be at the gym….never ending constant contact)

Angry or very upset when you do not respond to texts and voicemails right away

Never taking responsibility for their action – things are always someone else’s fault

Chameleon-like changeable personality – a different personality for different people and situations

They are always right and never make a mistake

They hate to be told they could have done something better or differently

Jealousy and Ownership of You

Isolating you from family and friends (discouraging you from spending time with them/  getting angry when you do/ saying that those people are interfering somehow in your relationship/ telling you that relatives that you have known for years are out to get you and you did not realize it)

Need to control your schedule

Never apologizes or does so in a sarcastic,  fake way ( my ex never apologized but when I brought up something that was bothering me he would say “I am always apologizing to you.”…

I would say “you are?” and then he would say “Yes and I am not doing it anymore. I am tired of you making me apologize to me.”  …

And the funny thing was I was not looking for an apology.  He jumped to that conclusion on his own.  I just wanted to work on our communication.)

Need to know where you are at all times

Telling you what to wear and how to look

Control of the money ( you need to check with them before you spend your own money/  they question how you spend your money/ shame you or make you feel guilty over spending your money on yourself)

Criticism and disrespect  of women (this may not be directed at you at first  since they put on their mask and are on their best behavior during the idealization phase – observe how they treat other women who they have nothing to gain from)

Making you account for your whereabouts

Making you ask permission or clear your activities with them

Name calling and demeaning

Complaining that the women at work do not treat him with respect

Excessive monitoring and making you check in all the time

Extreme sense of entitlement

Unrealistic, and unreasonable  demands

Lack of sympathy and empathy

Not interested in anyone else’s side of things

Accusing you of cheating when you are not

Blaming you for things that do not go his way

Excessive need for control in the house

Manipulating your friends and family to take their side in arguments

Getting angry if you have a different opinion than they do

Making you feel stupid and less intelligent than they are

Being disrespectful to you in front of your family and friends

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Keeping Manipulative People from Using You – Seeing the Situation Rationally

One thing to keep in mind about manipultors and abusers, is that they do not always tell you the truth. We want to believe they are, because we do not want to think someone is lying to us.

One thing you can do is to look at their situation more rationally,  rather than emotionally.

Here are some questions that will help you to evaluate the situation.  All of these will not apply to every situation. I tried to cover more than one scenario, with the list.

1. Is their situation that they are asking for help with, really as desperate as they are telling you?

2. Is there really no one else to help them?

3. Have they actually asked others for help, if they are telling you that you are the only one who can save them?

4. Is it as emotionally meaningful to them as they are saying it is? Or do they just want to manipulate you?

5. In the past, has the situation they described turned out to be truthful or as necessary as they told you?

6. How many times has this person used you in the past?

7. Were they appreciative the last time?

8. Is there balance in the relationship,  of both of you helping each other?

9. If they promised you things in the past, to make up for inconveniencing you, did they come through?

10. What will happen to them, if you do not do what they want? Is it really that bad?

11. How what will happen to them, compare to what you have to sacrifice to help them?

12. Are they willing to compromise?

13. Are they willing to help you catch up on what you will be behind on, if you give up your time for them?

14. Are they listening to you about what your situation is, and why it would be difficult for you?

15. Do they care if or how much they inconvenience you?

16. Are they cutting you off when you try to explain your side?

17. Are they using guilt tripping , rather that letting you communicate your feeling and thoughts?

18.Are they open to suggestions from you, about other ways to solve their problem?

19.Are they open to suggestions from you about how not to have the problem again?

20. Are they putting in as much effort as you are, on their own behalf? Or are they sitting back while you do the work?

21. How do they react when you ask them for help?

22. Are they there for you when you need them or want friendship or someone to talk to?

23. How do they talk about you to other people?

24. Do they give you credit for what you do, or take the credit for themselves?

25. Do they remember times when you have helped them in the past, or do they say “You never do anything for me !”

 These questions will help you to see the situation for what it is. If someone is never there for you, but is suddenly calling you when they need help, then why do you have to feel obligated to help them?

It is one thing for someone to ask for your help. It is another thing for them to EXPECT it. Some people feel entitled to things. They may particularly feel entitled to your time, like you are their property.

If they are not being honest with you, or are not listening to you, then what makes them feel the right to expect your help?

 If they do not generally treat you with respect,  and do not respect your boundaries,  then they are taking advantage of you.

 You can spend your time more wisely,  by taking care of yourself.  There are also people more in need and more deserving of your time. While you are caught up catering to a manipulative person,  you could be really helping someone else.

 The manipulator is good at manipulating others.  They can get someone else to do for them.

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Learn How to Draw Boundaries with Manipulative People

Drawing boundaries is difficult for people that have People Pleaser Syndrome because we were never taught how to draw our own boundaries. Personal boundaries were constantly crossed by one or both parents.

People from abusive backgrounds were brought up to keep our feelings and opinions to ourselves and to cater to the feelings of others. If you have people pleaser syndrome then you have some (not necessarily all) of the following characteristics.

1. Difficulty saying no, especially when the other person does not want to accept “no” for an answer.

2.  Extreme anxiety during any confrontations.

3. Extreme anxiety when people are disappointed in you, or they are  not happy with your actions.

4. DIfficulty standing your ground, when you do not agree with someone.

5. Get taken advantage of easily or often.

6. Other people get more time to make their case during arguments. You end up feeling intimidated to say what your side is.

7. The need for people to approve of you.

8. Seek validation about yourself from other people

9. Get talked into doing things that you do not want to do. (like working extra shifts at work)

10. Have trouble telling people when they are crossing a boundary with you.

Usually people with People Pleaser Syndrome grew up in some sort of abusive situation during childhood.  Abuse does not necessarily have to involve physical abuse. If you were expected to take on a parent’s problems and feelings as your own, and be responsible for their feelings, then that is abusive.

If you felt you had to act in certain ways, in order to keep a parent from becoming angry, then your focus was on the parents feelings all the time. You were not able to act according to your own feelings, because in order to survive, you had to constantly monitor the moods of the parent.

As a child and as you grew into teenage years, you were supposed to be taught how to be an individual. You should have been allowed to draw boundaries that were reasonable and those boundaries should have been respected by your parents.

Boundaries that are often violated in abusive households

1. Personal space. Teenagers should have had the right to personal space, such as their bedroom drawers  not being gone through. They should be allowed to have the door closed, and not have the parent just opening the door without knocking. The knocking on a closed  bedroom door, is a basic courtesy that is often violated in abusive families. The right to personal letters, diaries and other items is important.

There are even narcissists that will violate this boundary with other adults.

( when I was first married my mother in law used to go through everything in  my apt from bedroom drawers to my trash. This was such a violation to me. I asked her not to but narcissistic people do not respect boundaries and she just did it when I was not home…my kids used to tell me she was going through drawers when I left for work)

2. The Right to have feelings. Children should have a right to feel what they feel. In some  abusive households, children are often scolded for crying or expressing feelings that they have about situations. They are taught to feel what they are told to feel. As adults we have trouble identifying what it is that we actually feel, because we are conditioned to feel what others want us to feel.

( I used to try to tell  my mother when I was upset or sad, but it made her angry. I could not talk about my feelings when my parents were divorced or when she decided to stop letting me have visitation with my father. I could not ask her to spend some of her days off with me instead of all of her free nights going on dates. I never saw her. She was at work or on a date. She called me selfish if I mentioned it)

3. The Right to choices and opinions.  In some  abusive households the child or teenager is not given the right to make choices and have opinions. Parents are supposed to be reasonable with their children and teenagers, as they express their desires and opinions.

If you were not allowed to express an opinion that was different from your parent then you probably grew up feeling like you have to keep any opposing opinions to yourself. You will have a hard time speaking about your opinion and you may even have trouble accessing your opinion at all.

People with toxic personalities will prey on those that have People Pleaser Syndrome. They know how to recognize you. They know that they can take advantage of you, in a variety of ways.

My  last boyfriend spent weeks just listening to me talk about my abusive past and how it left me with difficulty standing up for myself. He knew I was a perfect target.

Some things you can do to protect yourself. There are a few things that can help. I will talk about one of them here to start with. Then I will post some follow up posts with more ideas for you to work on. 

 Practice identifying what you are feeling and thinking.  You may know that you are feeling anxiety or discomfort, but practice trying to take a minute and be able to identify your emotions more specifically. In your mind you want to be able to say 

“You are making me feel like my feelings do not matter. You are making me feel like I do not matter.”

“I feel like my schedule does not matter to them and they do not think I have important things to do”

“I feel like I am being taken advantage and they are asking things that are not reasonable”

“I feel frustrated that they keep asking me to do something after I already said no”

“They are intentionally not listening to what I am saying, in order to get their way”

When you can identify exactly how you are feeling, then you can allow yourself to feel that way, rather than shoving your emotions down. It will give you some words to use during the communication or at least validate to yourself how the person is making you feel.

Some toxic personalities will counter your right to feel what you feel. They may use techniques to confuse you about what you are feeling. They will also try to put the fault on you that you are feeling that way.

They might say…

“You really should work on your anger issues”

“You get upset about everything”

“We have to work together” (are they working together with you, or using you?)

“Your mental illness is causing you to think or feel that way” (my ex used to do this. Any time I was upset with him, he would say that it was my mental illness )

“You are projecting another experience on me” (my ex used to say I was thinking of ex boyfriends when I thought he was being unkind to me. He said I was projecting their behavior onto him )

“I am not doing anything to make you feel bad”

“I would never do anything to make you feel low self esteem or feel bad” (my ex used to say this to me)

“You are responsible for your own feelings. There is nothing I can do to make you feel bad, unless you want to feel bad. (that was my ex husband)

One time I was trying to talk to my ex about the lack of time he was spending being intimate with me. We had not been intimate in over a month. He said “There are 12 step groups for sex addiction. Maybe you should go.”

I am sure you can add to the list, from your own experiences. Feel free to add one in the comments.

Just because someone says they are not doing something, does not mean they are not doing it. A toxic personality will tell you outright that they are not doing what they are doing.

I had a boss one time who was very narcissistic and always had to have her way. She would become enraged if anyone did anything that she felt crossed her in any way. She would rage at you behind the closed door of her office.

Out in the main areas she would brag about the fact that she was a very understanding manager. She said that she was a great manager because she respected and listened to the opinions and feelings of the people under her. She was all smile in the lobby and I could hardly recognize her as the same person who had become all red faced and screaming at me in her office.

The other tactic people will use on you is guilt. They will make you feel guilty for saying no. They might say. My family used these kinds of guilt manipulations all the time on me.

1. Well, I was hoping to have a daughter in law that would be part of our family. Being part of the family means going to all family functions, no matter what else you had planned. ( this is my ex mother in law)

2. A good daughter would...(my father has used this one to get me to go back into the line of fire with my abusive mother many times)

3. As the oldest sister you are responsible to...(my father has said this to me many times, in order to get me to forgive my sister for being abusive to me)

4. Didn’t I do you a favor last month? (The favor was something you did not ask for and probably was not helpful.) –  this was my ex boyfriend. He would pay my $60 phone bill and then expect me to 20 hours of work for him every week.

5. We really need your help. Everyone else is busy. (your time is less important that the other people who said no / they have more of a right to say “no” than you do)

6. But I lent you  money. ( so you are now an indentured servant until the debt is paid off, which will never happen because they keep adding interest on it) – my ex inlaws used to use our debt to them against us

7. I thought you cared about me (as if saying “no” to this one thing will prove you do not love them) – my ex mother in law still does this to me

8. I thought you cared about the family (as if saying “no” to this one thing is a severe violation of loyalty)

I am sure you can add to list, from your own experiences. Feel free to leave one in the comments.

More ideas in Part 2. I am working through this process of overcoming People Pleaser Syndrome myself. It can be done. It is a matter of retraining our brains, and getting the things that we missed developmentally during childhood.